Not ready for love

I am such a bad girl how come you love me?
Sometimes when you wish to give too much
to the person who has not that much to offer to you,
you fail and this gift is just a heavy thing to keep

so you push it away
and you go your way
feeling guilty
just because he was so great to you and you wasn’t
enough

I dont need perfect lover

It's not a point to be so perfect lover at all
It's a bit more complicated
I am afraid
But how come you know it
It's the hidden part of the story

Go if you want

Some can't understand this sweet madness of mine
which keeps me so happy girl for years somehow
they think they can give me more
It's wrong all my joy is here
You can share it too
If you want but you can't take me away
To reality at all
Because I do not believe
In real life anymore
It's here my world
With my love

My sweet addiction

Is it anything I need more than this write to you my beloved?
Any alcohol, drug or even sex can’t replace the real delight
Of my connection here mind to mind
I just have a little hope that you read me
And it’s good for your ear
To hear my thoughts to stay here
So bared I am with them
So confusing or repeating sometimes
They will be never so beautiful
As all sweet signs of your presence
Beside me
But I need them to live
and to feel you here

Our fantasy

Is that true darling
Is it just that we want what we can not have?
So why I alredy feel you in me
you with me here?

I know it's a bit like a fantasy or dream
but it's still
you and me in this

we did this darling

you see baby
at least
some of our dreams came true
we did things
that we do not wish to make with others

they are precious
and only for us
marvellous

Little important details of your personality and acts

Mostly these are
very little things
Which makes you so great
In my eyes
At least

TAKE A WALK ON THE WILD SIDE

So you really love me like this baby
You are beautiful
And you know me so well

You know when to set me free
and keep me with you still

A man

I think you are an adult man
You take all the blame on you
It's cute

Little advice

Don't be too seriouse please
It's not sexy

Layers

Some just can't see more layers
We all wear
so they see only this what can be seen
all the rest is disgusting and insane for them
be careful for people with walls in their head
they wont understand
they will be first to judge you
and to let you down
better to leave
fight doesn't have any sense
they have to discover their own boundaries them selves
you have nothing to do there
they wont understand
they are not ready yet
and you can only fail
you this open one
and insane
beautiful loser
But in their eyes
even not beautiful just mad
So free you are
in your own mind
stay like this
it's just another level
of understanding
of your self
stay on your way
to the heaven or to the hell
you know that all is just a journey
and you can leave
or you can stay
for a while
depends of you and your will
you are the creator
of your destiny
and your dreams
you are here the one who lives your life
don't stop then
and go on your way
it's nothing you can do more
just go
you know what you feel the best
and you know what is right and what is wrong
In your case
you don't need poor advices
from people who doesn't know
your mind and your soul
they are not special to you at all

Network

Each day it's more hard
To find anything special outside
Just some strangers or people you can smile to and say hello
Most of the time nothing more
Maybe at times you pass someone
You like this special way too
And you create another story of love
Between you both which never grow up
To something real
Maybe sometimes you try
To have some kind of meetings too
And it seems you come closer
And something was born

But the real life
You have here
Your friends wait every day
All these special minds connected
In one story you live in
In your book in your dream world
And in your so special place
Where you can really be shameless open and true
You with all this what you really enjoy and love
What can be more exciting than this?
Nothing maybe a part of it in touch
Once for a year or more
Is any difference by the way?
When you wait longer it taste even better
So you learn to be patient too
In mean time you have all this world
To enjoy

Truth

I am never untrue
In my heart or words of love
To you

Maybe sometimes
I just hide
One lover or few

To not upset you
That's all

Neurotic

I am still afraid
There is too much of me here
And my words can touch you too much
Or that there is not enough love I show to you
And you can go away
or that you simply can't stand
all this what I make around
or that you stop believe
in you and me
Together

Why so full of fears is still
between you and me
I cant explain

You were here

So you were here again
With your hunger
For more words
From me
Or other fluids
So Sweet

I like when our worlds mix
I like to be
In your dreams
or wishes too

They are fine
Delicious and wild
As you

the miracle

What are you looking for?
The miracle

Why so?
Because everything else I think I know now

I've got you under my skin

I've met nice man few days ago on the Paris Airport when I stick there for hours when my plane was gone, we talk about many differnt things as love work life and dreams about religion and sex as well he was lovely open man and he let me read this special lyrics too just to inspire maybe to write something new

Nice song by Rush called Ghost of a chance:

"Like a million little doorways
All the choices we made
All the stages we passed through
All the roles we played

For so many different directions
Our separate paths might have turned
With every door that we opened
Every bridge that we burned

Somehow we find each other
Through all that masquerade
Somehow we found each other
Somehow we have stayed
In a state of grace

I don't believe in destiny
Or the guiding hand of fate
I don't believe in forever
Or love as a mystical state
I don't believe in the stars or the planets
Or angels watching from above
But I believe there's a ghost of a chance we can find someone to love
And make it last...

Like a million little crossroads
Through the back streets of youth
Each time we turn a new corner
A tiny moment of truth

For so many different connections
Our separate paths might have made
With every door that we opened
Every game we played

Somehow we find each other
Through all that masquerade
Somehow we found each other
Somehow we have stayed
In a state of grace

I don't believe in destiny
Or the guiding hand of fate
I don't believe in forever
Or love as a mystical state
I don't believe in the stars or the planets
Or angels watching from above
But I believe there's a ghost of a chance we can find someone to love
And make it last..."





I like it I really do and I smile because I found you :)

Constant stay

Once upon a time
Heraclit said:
"panta rej"
and yes I believe this old truth too
I can see how the time change all

but you
please
constant stay
for me
I wish this
and I dream still
of you and me
together forever
just like this
so beautiful so sweet
sometimes wild too
and in love

so please
stay like this for me
and believe

It's love what is perfect not we

Do we have to be perfect
To love?
Always true to each other always good
I don't think so
It's love which is perfect for us
To catch each moment it comes
Each smile, longing, desire
Is love possible to get for good?
I don't know this yet
Instead
I know how it is
To have it inside
And smile with it and cry
And live and fly
And go on, break sometimes too or lost
Or love more than one
It's so floating sometimes

Yes but some stay for good
At least inside our soul
I call it the miracle
I call it sweet love
I hide it or I show
Depends, the time is always a part of it
And me and dreams too and memories of course
And life goes on from one to another corner
From one to another love
The circle again the way to follow
We never know we will stay or we have to go
We can comeback too, I am sure
All depends of the flow and us and this what do we want
And how we can see each other
As always the same, I know...

But it's how it goes
With me and you
Let's fly let's love
Whatever it is
It doesnt matter at all
No definitions we need
To enjoy this what we can have in this world.

Complexive

You want me to be yours
But not with you now
You want me to be a whore
And a Saint of course
Never look for another man
or yes I can
In your fantasies
I can fuck them all
Just to turn you on
And me
Yes it's sweet of you
I have a right to pleasure
I have a right to smile
I have a right to dance
as you wish as you play
when you came here
to look
then all is broken again
then you feel hurt and me
complexive nature
don't you like this?
I though you do
So it's broken now
Of course
but you say you will miss me
you will I am sure
and I will
Thats how is it
We can't do anything