Little thing

When there is not much to gain
There is not much to lose as well
So you live your life as it was before
Just without

The Doors-The End

"This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again
Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand
In a...desperate land
Lost in a Roman...wilderness of pain
And all the children are insane
All the children are insane
Waiting for the summer rain, yeah
There's danger on the edge of town
Ride the King's highway, baby
Weird scenes inside the gold mine
Ride the highway west, baby
Ride the snake, ride the snake
To the lake, the ancient lake, baby
The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake...he's old, and his skin is cold
The west is the best
The west is the best
Get here, and we'll do the rest
The blue bus is callin' us
The blue bus is callin' us
Driver, where you taken' us
The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and...then he
Paid a visit to his brother, and then he
He walked on down the hall, and
And he came to a door...and he looked inside
Father, yes son, I want to kill you
Mother...I want to...WAAAAAA
C'mon baby,--------- No "take a chance with us"
C'mon baby, take a chance with us
C'mon baby, take a chance with us
And meet me at the back of the blue bus
Doin' a blue rock
On a blue bus
Doin' a blue rock
C'mon, yeah
Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill
This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die
This is the end"

Jim Morrison

Life and dreams

The point is that in the particular case and in this stage of life
I do no longer wished to dream only

I have been doing this for years and suddenly I needed some change

That I shouldn’t..perhaps I know but…sometimes we need this
So now some dreams are only a step away from the actions I wish to make..and I do
In to the right direction that follows my needs but of course anything ever in life
Is not so easy nor so clear
And our steps should come naturally sometimes accidentally, just in time too, if they don't
All seems ruined and not worth to try to go for anymore
But these are emotions we can't always hide nor erase
Especially standing face to face

With these we wish to be perfectly real with

So all goes wrong at times
And there is nowhere to go after all
Nor even dreams stay in you
Except some of this we still feel inside
The regrets, and thoughts, some decisions that we make
Each day seems so different this way
Life flows with all its surprises again
To give us new inspiration and terms to come with
Here or there well it all just flows away
Nothing is stable, nothing will remain
Just these few feelings inside
Few broken dreams, few scars and some good memories too
Oh life, there is still so much ahead
There is also an experience behind
And this is what is all about
In fact

and you

you just hurt by this never ending fake you make

you are just a bigger dreamer than I

That's why

we can't fit right

Even if all seems so sweet at times

in a dream land

you helped me to create

once upon a time

it's nothing but a tell story

and well

it came to end

when I wakened up again

I tried so hard

to catch the dream

like it was real

you are nothing but a rain drop

and the charm splash

when I try to have you for real

then you disappear

and

tears remain

that's how it is with you

and this life and dreams too

I was silly again

How silly I was

I am afraid...

too bad

Losing name

Don't call your self my man
My man wouldn't do it to me again
You lost this privilege

you are free now
enjoy your time

resignation

Now I don't need to hurt you nor do anything else
it's time to simply live like nothing happen
it's not the first time like this and well
there is really nothing to fight for

so

let's move on

Good bosses and you

Good bosses as well colleagues mostly ask you the same question

Each time you meet

“How are you?”

and the only answer you find is:

“I am fine thank you”

Even if you are close to suicide at the moment
But it's good at least they don’t have to listen your thoughts
That are.. well let's say messy at times
So all is fine

Just a bit rainy perhaps

I am not a killer

Yes I am not a killer baby
but when you treat me too bad
I need to hurt you

and kill you
the way I find attractive
and you perfectly know
what this means

What I am afraid
Is that we will play this way
again

I wish it was different
you know
but this is you
and this is me

and this is how it is
with us
this game starts

it was your choice
not mine

but this is you
and this is me
darling

so

I think you know
what this means

I wont ask you again
this is the end

It must be love

You make me feel sick too easily
It must be love

The Killers - Shadowplay

The killer can be a woman who brings your child
The killer can be a man you spent the night with
The killer can be a life you can't bear

Be strong if you wish to stay to the end of the show
If not, well it's just a matter of time
But why worry so much
Enjoy and find this real thing you care about
It has to be something special for you
Another way, what would be worth all of this world?

The answer is always the same and you know it well
so why worry now?
stay strong and smile to all
that's how it works

An alternative

If we can't live together
maybe we could die together
At least?

A mistake

For a moment I thought
That it is a conversation
But it's again just a talk of mad woman in space
Nothing else
How sad

Smile smile not

yes you know how to put smile on my face
but you know as well this how to get it away
it's just I take all too seriously
so it's touching

so silly I am
with this

but how not to be
when I feel
each word of yours
by all senses
by whole heart
and soul
how?

Please stay and bright my day

I was always searching a light
and then you came in to my life,
how nice,
but now please stay
and help me to fight with all black thoughts that come
from time to time,
don't be too scared of them
just stay and speak to me
so they all gone again
and I can smile to you,
my beautiful,
how I am happy that you came
to bright my days
to teach me passion and love
that I never believed can be real
until we've met and this just happened
my darling

you are the man with the real passion and love in your words
That heats women hearts
at least mine
which is burning each time you stay near
please never change
and come again here
when you see me walking in the darkness without you again
or when I'm using my charms for another man
Who could take me away from you
Because I am yours for good
remember

Your album

Hard to say what touch me more
Your pictures with these nice looking women around you
Who you work with or you have fun with I don't really know
or pictures of your family that you love to put between us
Like a paves before my love
I think I am not doing the same to you
You know I could flow like a river to find new world with you
Searching a way to keep a safe place for all we are with now too
But you are afraid of this I know
It was never me that you really chosen
To be with for real
I am nothing but a little shadow on your soul
Little ghost of love to keep inside
To fulfil empty days with some charm, noise and warm
yes this is who I am
Not a big deal in fact
Just a song, a poem, a thought, a smile, sometimes tears too
Something that let you feel a little bit more
Even just excitement at times too
Just a moment in space
That's all
Yet still you are everything to me what I want
I can't help that you become my world
And from this time I can't find anything else to enjoy
But it is still touching
All this what you show me now
But I wish to watch and cry
For all that I wish to have but I can't
We all have such things haven't we?
I am not the one like this
It's quite common sin
And I am guilty too
I can't enjoy my days so much
As this longing I have for you
I drowned for good
I can't help, can't explain this too
I just need to watch and feel and have some hope
For this what I want
At least I've found this thing
I have my way inside, my need
To keep you inside me
And in this little wish to see you again
and to feel love in your words and touch
Even if it is so fleeting I need to stay waiting
And watching you, there is nothing else I can do

One funny thing

There is one funny thing with you
It seems that I always try to force the doors that are always open
But I keep doing it and I am always a bit surprised
Seeing you there with open arms for me and this sexy smile
Yet again I start every day with you from the beginning
My new old dance for you my song
To win your heart like it was still
Not in my hands

Maybe this is how I understand love?
Or maybe I just feel safe with you to do whatever I need or wish to do
Having hope that nothing will change the way you feel with me

Or maybe you just helped me to enjoy my self better and discover things or just being me because Suddenly I want this all and I need to be like this

You using the right word, the right glance or maybe the right spell
You create the sea of love in me that I need to flood you in and keep you like this naked wet and wishing more
Sometimes it works sometimes I have to wait but I need all this still
It's amazing thing this life with you really!
This way love seems like watching and showing carefully or spontaneously but always with the same interest and need to see and show more

And this is what I love about us
and in you and me
this never ending story

the temperature of love

too many words
too much heart away
it was too much of me by your side today
so it's time to go away

waiting

Hidden things and exceptions

Generally I don't like hidden things
At all
Except these few
That I share with you

You look like rain

Needs

I need to be like an open book
You need to be a secret lover though

and we both respect each other
This way love turned into signs in space
And our minds create magic to live by
Just like a faith
and hope

It is somehow wonderful
and you know that magic is all I can believe in
especially this one that we can feel

The slight differences

I am trying to save this all
What you are trying to hide

From some point of view
I can see kind of cooperation between us
In this matter

I will save all this what you will lost
and you will save all other things around

Thank you