Gone but still inside me

Do you think it is the end when you have gone ?
You are wrong
I can now even feel you more

You became my every though
Dream and joy
You became sweet memorie of my own
Bitter too
I know you like to be like this
It's more tasty, more real
I know you my broad minded and down to earth man
And now even when you had to go away
I still own you like a dream I wish to stay forever in
I know how to keep you still
And I dont ever wish to cure my self
It'd be like a cut the half of me
This more beautiful, more mad and deep
I wont do this
I'll drown with this ship
Instead