Messy mind

It seems that you have a gift

To find for your self

A problematic girl a bit

Each monologue I have to you

It always sticks to the same point

I'm afraid that I'm not this girl

You can really love

Even if I wish this so much

Even when you say

From time to time

That you do

I need to keep it alive

All the time

Each day again from the start

I need to know this

And let you know too

That I just think of you

But at the same time doing it

I'm afraid so much

That I'm losing you

By my silly talk

How it’s difficult

Just to keep silence a bit

Or saying few words

Just to let you know

That I'm here and I love

As you do this

From time to time

Until you are losing patience a bit

And keep silence

You busy responsible full of life man

And me who is doing nothing special still

And who so evidently needs your company each day

When perhaps I should keep my self as busy as you

Or at least pretend that I do

So many things as you

I keep my mind busy just

And sometimes can't keep my hands

Far enough from my mobile phone

Or messenger to not share some of this

What is running here

Just why I'm afraid so much

I can lose you

And can't stop writing

All weaknesses of my heart

Which gives you nothing except a feeling

That I'm not that strong as I should be

And maybe I even let you be confused a bit

It’s terrible this need in me

And all this uncertainty

How you can stand this my love

How can I have so many silly problems

On and one childish impossible

God what a funny person human being is

Especially me right here

And all these crazy ideas

I know they are mad a bit

And selfish I'm in this

Can you love me

As I am right now?

Can you understand why

I need this so much?

And even if all seems

Funny and sad and piteous too

It’s all me for you

And it’s all I enjoy

Inside my heart

After all I'm not sure

If it wont be better to stay as we are

I just have to write less

To give you a chance

To miss me a bit

As well my mysterious personality

Because showing you all me

Can be killing

To this love and me

Maybe it’s time

To leave my self

To start create something else

New perspective perhaps?

But all I have in me

Is you

What do I know of you than?

You are so sexy man

With this what you say

The way you see things in life

Sometimes you are cruel a bit

With your opinions yes

About these who don't know

All this you do so well

These who has too easy life

You don't trust

Sometimes I'm a bit scared when you say so

If my life is enough difficult

To be the person you can adore

For something more that a pretty face or legs

It’s just because I need so much your love

Yet still so beautiful you are in all this

What you think

God what to do to be sexy for you

Enough again

I said so many things you could call

Not fruitful and childish too

That you can't find any interest to continue

Why am I so silly with you

But at least so happy

When I get this little answer

For all this I say

Even when a bit hard you are

I feel nothing but love

And I'm all in smiles

Feeling your thoughts again

In me

I can enjoy them again and explore each color of them in me

Until another wave of uncertainty flows through my mind

And I worry again to come back

To the same point, in me

Hopeless girl

Even being a bit cruel yet still beautiful you are to me

And I can't stop telling you this

Such a flatterer I became here

But it’s only to you I'm like this

I can't stop my self and you know it’s what I think

Even if it can be just funny to you at least.

What ever you plan to do after this

Just fuck me one more time please.

You didn't tell me

That you love me yesterday

I know it was all not necessary

This talk of rich and poor

Or other conditions

Or work

And compare this what you said

And what is true

To my self

But I'm a bit silly this way

I always take all to my self

Then all these thoughts you know so well

Flowing again through me

And all I wish is that you could say

Something nice

But at times you just turn in to silence

I can't change this

So have to calm down

And grow up I think

And have hope

That you love me

And such things can’t change this

Even when I do not agree

With all what you say

I love when you do so

I love to hear your voice

It’s always so cute somehow

This charm is in each step you do

Each word and the way you see this world

And your point of view for all these rich politicians too

Even when you are so cruel to them

And I think it’s not all so bad as you say

I love when you do so

And at least I have to agree

You are right with most of this

What you believe in.

Oh actually I think

I’m totally simple one girl

And I always had

This problems you mention about

The low income

The only difference

Is this that I never tried

Real hard work

I choose other way to go

That’s all

He has your profile

What amazing touch

Can’t stop look at this man

But not, now I see his face

Is not so sweet as yours

Not this glance not this charm

But profile

Yes it is similar and this smile

God, this smile

I can see your face

So well now

You are so clear in my mind

So sweet beautiful

What a wonderful feeling is this

Memory to keep

And you are mine still

As you say to me

I should never doubt in this

Amazing looking at his nose and the same cute line of his mouth

That remind me you give me so much pleasure

So suddenly incredible

Pleasure on the beach

I can say

Do whatever you want

Keep your world as far from mine as you wish

Just don’t stop to love me please.

Our worlds are so different

Though all you are and you do seems exciting to me

That’s why I wish to leave all I have here and follow you

Even if it seems a bit crazy I know